Me, Before Lyme


My life before Lyme was a flurry of activity; I loved being on the go! I lived a full life and was full of energy and always laughing & making other’s laugh. Here’s a snapshot of my pre-Lyme life:

 

  • Loved my intense career as a special constable with the Saskatoon Police Service in the Comms section (911/dispatch). Or as I like to call us “phone cops”.
  • Worked 12 hour shifts: 2 days & 2 nights, 4 days off.
  • Continuously volunteered to pick up OT shifts when other platoons were short-handed.
  • Coached a youth broomball team.
  • Played full-body contact (hells yeah!) senior ladies broomball – competed in weekly league play, yearly provincial championships & national championships.
Gold medal at Provincials!

Gold medal at Provincials!

  • Played hockey. (I had taken time off for an MCL tear, but haven’t been able to play now that I have Lyme)
Playing pond hockey with some buds

Playing pond hockey with some buds

  • Trained 4-5 days/week at Nelson boxing club (which was my ultimate happy place; it was my second home).
  • Volunteered as a registered boxing trainer & ‘worked the corner’ @ fights for our boxers.
Driving to Edmonton to coach competing boxers!

Driving to Edmonton to coach competing boxers!

  • Volunteered as a board member for a new provincial sanctioning body for boxing, Fight Sport Saskatchewan.
  • Worked 2-3 shifts/month doing front desk administration at the boxing club.
  • Had a busy night life and social calendar; always going out with friends, co-workers & siblings.
  • Loved going to the lake with friends & loved camping, quading & ski-doing with my boyfriend & his family.
Quad rides at Cowan Lake!

Quad rides at Cowan Lake!

  • Spent as much time as possible with my big ass family! And baby-sitting my newlings (my word for nieces/nephews) whenever I could!
Me having fun with 2 of my nephews!

Me having fun with 2 of my nephews!

  • Loved going out to the farm as often as possible. Mom has a beautiful yard we love to enjoy in the spring and summer!
  • Loved cooking! I loved delivering meals to my family/friends who were new moms, ill or in the hospital, or as a gesture of thanks when someone helped me out.
  • Enjoyed travelling, even short road trips. In the 2 years before I got sick I had been to Edmonton (x3), Yellowknife, Vegas, Seattle & Ottawa. And of course to various SK lakes countless times.
  • Loved, loved, loved being in the new ‘honeymoon stage’ of our relationship with my boyfriend.

 

Coach Marilyn with her midget girls

Coach Marilyn with her midget girls

Out of this entire list that was once my life, the only thing I was able to continue doing was coaching the youth broomball team – but only because I had two assistant coaches & an amazing team manager that did the bulk of the work. And to this activity I clung dearly – it was the only recognizable part of my life that was left to me. Even cooking regularly had become too over-exerting.

 

I thank the stars that I am still with my amazing boyfriend; but that exquisite honeymoon stage we were in had come to an abrupt end and we’ve been over some rocky terrain since. I still go to the lake occasionally but I can’t do much but sit around (which can still be nice!). I go to the farm occasionally, but it’s just not the same for some reason. Something is missing – it feels a bit empty. I think it’s because I feel empty.

 

Do not give upI don’t recognize myself anymore; I feel like a shadow, or a living husk of the person I used to be – with all my internal spark and vigour having been sucked out of my core. It doesn’t even feel like I’m in my own body. I don’t like the person I am forced to be. I want to be who I was; I loved being me, but I no longer have a choice.

 

Lyme has taken almost everything away from me.

 

 


 

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